dis 17 February genaplah 1 years me & my teddy being 2gether. for the past 1 year ni i tink im d happiest person in this world…BAHAGIA sangat!! bahagia sangat pun xboley sebenarnye kan nanti ennd up sume yang diharapkan ruin cam2 je kan kan kan… Yesterday i acompany zaim playing futsal at NSTP, bangsar.. playing wit mr.gendut cum ainie bf team…:P kekalahan yang melampau2 kot..haishhhh cian teddy around 12 pluss kami bergerak pulang.. we plan 2 watch the curious of benjamin pe ntah tapi cam lambat coz teddy have to go back early coz nak basuh baju sumer bagai.. paper pun have 2 go back coz nak antar ajay balik umah den go back my place 2 take a few thing & wen to his place coz he want 2 take a bath den we go 2 cineleisure.. memandangkan me & tedy might no see each other this week 2 celeb our anniversary 2morow so i decide to give the gift that i made for him which is a photo album dat full wit our pix.. precious tyme 2gether.. & oso as for all my hardwork working & collect $ i manage to blanja him eat at the BEACH at cineleisure..the food was awesome..yelah kan mesti lah sedap dah namer pun tempat 2 mahal…but i don’t care as long as dat i can spent tyme 2 gether wit him…

me taking the next step…. ” had enuff of pain in her life” <— from ainie facebook… babe, it make d two of us.. i had enuff!! i wish dat i can be strong..strong to live & move on with my life.. or let the time decide wat r d best for me.. i askd him alots of ques yesterday.. “what if teddy caught ki cheating on teddy,how teddy feels???” and he said ” ofcourse teddy will pissed & sad”.. next ques ” what if teddy caught ki been flirting wit some other guys & we have an affair quite sometime..he said ” the answr are still d same wit d previous ques “.. soalan ni sajer2 je nak nanyer..gatal kan  nak nanyer soalan2 yang cam2..i hope dat he understand wat dat im trying to do or say.. dat nyte i open the facebook..almost 3 4 days i not on9.. i send a message to “her” sajer je nak kawan2 cam2.. & a few min den she on9 den i txt ” her”.. say hi & watsoever.. just 2 be friendly..

den she askd me” how u n him?? dah oke dah?? ” i was like huh??? pelik…

den i reply ” yeah, we okey ” how bout u??..

n she said ” me??,wat abaout me?? “

i reply back ” sajer je nak tau “

ders a lots actually just dat i don’t feel dat its ryte 2 wrote it in here. she clearly said dat she has nuthing to do wit him.no feeling at all juz to flirting around coz she has already has a bf.. etc…im pissed & so sad.. my heart is broken & no one understand how i feel.. but its okey i try 2 b strong.. watever u try 2 do it don’t work for me.. mayb it is true time will decide.. but hopefully is a good thing..miracle happen & save our relationship….. p/s: i love u more….

thankx for make me happy dear..

thankx for everything dat u had done for me..

sory for not being a good girlfriend to u…

sory for everything dat i done or say dat might hurt ur feeling..

but i tink forsure im not sory of being in love with u..

Ya Allah, please give me kekuatan utk menjalani hidupku ini.. Berikan lah aku kebahagian dunia akhirat.. Bukakan lah pintu hatinya.. semoga dia sedar bahawa hambamu ini ikhlas menerimanya seadanye.. Ya Allah, aku memohan petunjuk darimu.. amin!!

p/s : i love u becoz of u.. God give me d best bf ever & im blessed.. ” bersayang & berkasih ku kerana ALLAH bukan kerana nafsu,dear “